Dear Diary,

A lot of things have been happening recently and way too fast.
It's like I'm sitting on a roller coaster and I can't stop.
These few days I have been constantly asking myself if I can keep up.
I think I can :D:D:D:D
BTW, I think I'm getting angry easier now...
I think I want to slow down, but what if my engine broke down and wouldn't start again?

You know the feeling when you want something REALLY bad?
And then you proceed to beg and whine to your friends and family to get it for you.
One day, your best friend goes up to you and says
"I'VE GOT YOU WHAT YOU WANT!"
"WTFFF... SERIOUSLY DUDE? I LOVE YOU."
"NAH I'M JUST KIDDDDIN."

-.- the feeling sucks shit man.
That's what i felt , just a thousand times painful.
But you wouldn't understand because you're a diary...

No, I don't understand you at all now... not the tiniest bit.
Never understood you before... nope not the tiniest bit.
And no, you do not have a new life.
You have a new crush.

But I have a new life.
A new life without you.
Right now you really disgust me.
But I wonder if paddlepop will last long in your mouth.
Because corn melted reaaaal fast.

How long does it take for you to get over relationship?- rhetorical -
From how I see it about 3 months.
After you completely cleanse yourself clean of feelings,
You go into rehab.
Rehab meaning you live your stressless love free life.
Rehab probably about another 1-2months.
I am stumped how people can recover so quickly from one crush to another...
Normally a BGR is like eating ice cream in a cone.
You eat the ice cream and you're loving it.(the fresh relationship love)
Then you eat too slowly and the ice cream melts..(the part you're falling apart with ur partner)
And the very next second it's gone... turns out you can't savor all of it.(the breakup)
Then you start chewing away at your cone which doesn't taste as good.(REHAB.)
By then you should be full, you have to wait a few hours before your next ice cream.

But there are some people I know that get another ice cream just 5 minutes after their last one.
0.o HOW DO THEY DO THAT?
SERIIIIOOOUSLY. I admire these people.
I never knew anyone could hop partners so easily.

Now I know.
Just be careful you don't get a diarrhea.

Dear Diary,

You know those times when you feel you can't stay at home? and you have to go out.
It's like the world is shrinking around you and you're gonna get squashed.
You find an escape route.
So somehow i managed to get to Orchard Road.

There were a lot of people there.. mostly couples.
So I was walking aimlessly down Ion and went up Patterson Link up to the stretch along Ion and Ngee Ann.
It was more crowded than I had expected which was good,
When you're down and sad you always want to see people around you.
I was feeling very hollow like an empty bottle.
So I walked down the road and heard music playing from a live band.
"I Gotta Feeling... That tonight's gonna be a good night... tonight's gonna be a good good night.."

hahaha I laughed of the irony.
The night time was like effervescent of euphoria with a tinge of derange.
I did not know Singapore was like this in the night.
Bright lights and music playing.
All so surreal...
I feel like I have discovered a new utopia.

There is a fountain before Ngee Ann and there were people lying there looking at the sky.
I was tired so I bought my Nescafe and proceeded to gaze at the stars with them.
I digressed and looked at the clouds instead,
They were so free and i was envious.
Clouds had the illusive freedom I had never grasped.
I lay there for awhile and move on.

I started walking deeper in and i reached Somerset. It was about 1AM then.
I then noticed that most people on the streets were not Singaporean but Malay or Indian.
It was not as pretty as Ngee Ann but still passable i guess.
I saw many whores down there.
After awhile i decided i was tired and went to take the MRT.

Unfortunately the MRT terminated of service and i took 162.
I alighted at macritchie reservoir and started making my way home.
I walked all the way from Macritchie to Yio Chu Kang;
There were no buses left.

On my way back i found myself thinking about a lot of things.
Like how i should start this post.

The whole night time experience was very galvanizing.
You see things differently in the night time.
Like when you look into a kaleidoscope for awhile and when you stop looking
you feel like your room looks different from before.

Conclusion: The World is brighter in the night time.

Hello.
This is my first post on this blog...
so um.
THE OBJECTIVE.
- Get some ACE points, hopefully :D
- Trashing sh!t out.
- Rant about Singaporean fuglies.



See you... like maybe in the evening?